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Finding happiness after Infertility

A First Birthday

I’m so happy with my little blog, it has opened a whole new world to me, introduced me to so many people who understand, it’s helped me work through my feelings and process my grief. When I couldn’t understand myself... Continue Reading →


What A Stupid Woman

Will I ever learn?  Even though I know, I know, I still can’t stop myself from being so very stupid. Is it programmed in me after months and months and years and years? Will I have a stupid surge of... Continue Reading →

We never really forget.

I had the weirdest dream, I was walking along the beach when I noticed an elephant and her baby by the rocks and cliff. The tide was coming in fast and the baby elephant was too small and it was... Continue Reading →

Me, selfish?

I don’t really go on Facebook very much anymore, it’s not really my thing, I prefer Instagram but every now and then I go on for a little nosey. A few weeks ago I was scrolling through Facebook not really... Continue Reading →

Am I Bitter?

After my last post about feeling hopfully and happy, this one is going to have a different feeling. I’m having one of those days where I’m feeling down and sorry for myself, I’m reflecting a lot and find myself questioning,... Continue Reading →

I’ve found where Hope hides

Its not that bad, I can’t believe I just wrote that. Surely I can’t be feeling and thinking that way. But there are bubbles of time, every now and then, when it doesn’t hurt, it doesn’t make me miserable, I... Continue Reading →

Dream a little dream of me.

I use to dream of a red headed little girl, she was shy with blue/grey eyes, an infectious giggle and an ear bleeding cry. She had her daddy wrapped around her little finger, she could do no wrong in his... Continue Reading →

The elephant in the room.

You know that feeling when something gets mentioned and there’s a collective tension in the room, an unspoken oh shit. I’ve always wondered if that’s just me? Or if everyone can feel the same tension and awkwardness? For me, I... Continue Reading →

The changing rooms of life

After the decision I felt lost, I was left bruised and battered with no hope for the future. I lived my life in a kind of limbo, with no hope or desire for the future, battling through pain and depression... Continue Reading →

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